The Long Road Home

Passion unparalleled by anything in our universe
the heart of a gift/cursed conquering king who knew desire
knew Love
knew Determination
but he never knew Peace

never knew his God complex and sharp poetic Shakespeare quick tongue would cut his own throat
knew the taste of his own blood soaked, saturated and stained teeth
knew the speech that swept feet and pushed heads through clouds
knew how to inflate hearts to float miles beyond reality
knew love & knew better but still let his desire filled heart take lead

his passion unparalleled by anything in our universe 
the heart of a gift/cursed conquering king who knew the great faith that fought daily with common sense
he knew hyper-intellectual thought so a lust for wisdom was his second nature
his philosophy...psycho-analytically driven by family and co-dependency
his virtue challenged by material but dominated by his own toxic self-righteousness
his determination fueled his passion
desire dictating the directions of a love inebriated heart and often times frustrated flashing temper

his passion...

unparalleled by anything in our universe

his heart...

gifted & cursed

he is a conquering king motivated by a will that moved mountains

he knew most could not conceive the thoughts of an aging dictator that would rather burn the road to contentment and live his remaining existence trapped in struggle so that his death may be his only progressive goal accomplished
the soul of a gift/cured conquering king who would rather sacrifice than be given anything unearned
who strived to move forward because just moving on is worse than standing stagnant

a gifted & cursed conquering king that would rather stand in the same place as long as it was known he was standing for everything he he held supreme

Implosive Miracle of Seduction

Her seductive spirit filled lips spilled whispers of desire while I stood still showing all 32 teeth

speechless and vulnerable, I journey...
I am a Soul Traveler, Unique! but why has she chosen me?

I am not wealthy... nor am I worthy of her greatness
but I, desire her unbridled attraction parallel to bright satellites
I define her presence in cosmic physics because no earth stricken movement would ever hold justice


with a Big Bang she spoke no words but her eyes held the intellectual monologue of Medusa
Hips of Venus, We traveled inner-space with no suits,
naked & unashamed she captivated my will

I heard her soul speak to me every time she grinned
so I could only smile,
(the only way I knew how to bring joy to her door)

Overrun with reckless abandon tightly clinching pure intention I entrenched deep within her pleasures
rising above mankind's limits reaching forever extending tipping points

My future family pioneer sparked my heart to revolution...
we evolved to levels of unexplored place...
She knew I desired trust suitable for a nation
so her perfection told no lies


Sparking powder kegs & Imploding fears inside I witness newborn confidence of kings...
the arrogance of a top gun pilot...
the celebration of a scientist staring down the barrow of an intergalactic kaleidoscope captivated by a colorful collage cloaked in the collected hopes of so many...

I have touched my holy grail
My Venus
My Medusa
My Mothership named Desire's Messiah

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lock

cocked

& ready to rock

popped 2 shots through the heart & stop blood flow

she hate me but don't know

every time she tell me...she loves me...it ain't me

& lately...I don't even know me

so now I sit lonely...surrounded with a wall of foolish pride

I hide behind true lies like a bad actor in an independent college film

my collaborating will...still hold tight to thoughts of holding you

I'm holding through the thick with no thin

caught by wicked wind...blew through the cavity the heart use to reside in

blown out by an assassin lying behind eyes of passion

I'm asking what happened to the smiles & laughing

now frowns & gnashing teeth incarcerate a tongue to no longer speak

Silence! slice the night chill with heavy breath

this is the death of a salesman

heart spilling desire cross concrete & asphalt

"Its Your Fault!!!"

pointed fingers implicated dying body

revenge is sweet but all I taste is the bitter backside my own lies

blown back in my own face

Taste! sweet revenge served cold

dark hole blowing heavy heat

cavity in my chest gargle speech

Please! don't leave me lying in lies on grief street...

~~~ ***let ballads free*** ~~~

I've never had the voice of Stevie Wonder, John Legend or Bob Marley

but when I am with U...

I wanna Belt out love ballads of adoration loud like no one listening...

picture me singing with the strength of the Brooklyn Boys Tabernacle Choir

trying to get the whole world to hear me

you bring out of me...

the best that I got

My every thought is seductively soaked with visions of u...

I day dream of U....& I...alive...side by side

eyes wide open inherently seeking comfort & growth in u

U are shinning brilliantly, bright & beautiful beyond any & all star burst or constellation

I'm constantly impatiently awaiting the next time I'm the presence of ur imperfect but precious humble angelic essence...

with my arms extended & my big black bald head spinning in every direction

I am belting out love ballads loud like no one is listening

tearfully singing songs to Adore God's Greatest Creation

I'm Blessed when I'm with U...

I've never had the voice of Stevie Wonder, John Legend or Bob Marley

but I still can't help to let ballads free just for the hope that maybe one day you will hear me...

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"Ur Torah Taught Me!!!"

Religon...Un-Real Reality
my spirituality move me constantly
...360 degrees

my soul speaks beyond belief
I am born the sun of knowledge
traveled with Jesus while he taught from the Torah

so why ask me why...
I seek the same...with apostles I speak the same

My Confidence is My Game!!!

"Love 4 Sale" ... 2006 Verse

simple thoughts of you bring forth the biggest grins, smiles and cheers

it is like i have no self-control while my mind steers all thoughts in your direction

minute by minute

hour by hour

day after day

your heaven, but only a mile away

and i am running to be in your presence

traveling at the speed of sound... the speed of light... the speed of love...

crushing & busting the the concrete into crumbs beneath my feet

for you...complete me like my own arms and legs

without you, i am No Less of a Man but i am always feeling better knowing that you are there

that you are alive and useful to me in my life

important like oxygen and when i think of not having you i can't breathe

never wanting leave your side

never being ever to erase you from my mind

my soul screams out for your touch... the way you smile shines on my rainy days... and your eyes brightens the darkest rooms

i am consumed in your warmth and beauty, truly seduced by just thoughts of you...

DAMN... I wish Love Was For Sale...

i'd never buy another pair of pants or shoes

my closet and dresser... car trunk and freezer would be full of nothing more than old receipts for all my "Love" purchases

all purposes i have for waking in the morning would change...

spare change would build towards goals while i walk cold dark alleys stung-out looking to spend every dime, nickel and penny on your "Love"

"I Mean"

i am a pimp playa

i mean... i am not anymore

i mean i am a night stalker, talkin slick with heavy chap stick covered lips, licking ur soul and holding ur emotions captivated with visionary energy, and an access granted by God...

mama i mean u no harm...

i mean... i wanna meet ur leader, the head of ur household, the 1 that showed u how to be the Queen, who's gained my undivided devotion & undivided appreciation...

i mean... my attention served like subpoenas, appearance presented b4 his magistrate, while i pray for a long-term sentence of spending my life trapped in ur world...

i mean... u r the definition of everything i have searched high and low for, became a man for, adore all things that u are... unique

i mean... or should i say...

today feels like the rebirth of Church, a new and exciting Preacher whispering words of encouragement tickling my my earlobe... rejuvenating my soul and awakening my mind to to the next level of consciousness

i mean understand my levels of expression, 1st lesson, i am not running game, I Am Game!!!

i mean i am what Magic Johnson and Larry bird is to basketball and not at all do i plan on walking away...

i am just rising to the next level with U

i mean... or let me say... everything i tell you is Truth and U are everything I ever wanted and will ever need...

I Mean in Us I do Believe!!!

Perfect Pair

forgive me when i stare

but

sometimes I can't help myself

initial witness

hypnotic gaze

dazed by your magnificence & marvelous flesh

I mean the brilliance of your breast

beautiful substainers of life

Christ-like

Pisces 2 fish, the perfect pair

natural thirst cure from the earth

pacifier for a prince's pleasure

we submit prone to simply suckle @ your gifts

Gorgeous!!!

forgive me when i stare

mind slips and imagines bare skin

abused & bruised in purple blossoms resembles flowers from a corsage carelessly pinned in a savage haste

male chauvinist dates force estrogen taste desire full circle fulfillment

forgive me when i stare in adoration

but I do promise patience

and a vow to

never mis-use you

I...C...U

Eye Ran the World
& Realized that Day Dreams aren't for Kings or Queens...

so Eye...

Killed the Thoughts a of Young Prince,

Eye...

Neglected My Physical & Emotion,

Eye...

Cleansed My Eye upon the Sight of a Phenomenal Feminine Pharaoh,
Marched to the Top of the Gaza Pyramid,
Spread My Soul,

& Re-Birthed Myself Morally New for You

Come Kiss My Lips & Make My Blood Boil

the taste of Cranberry & Chocolate Chips caress my lips when I wish for kisses frm the sweetest victory after an argument beyond winning

in the beginning we shared over cooked creative disasters
& still smiled because the presence of an earth maiden, archer firing flaming arrows was a present that blessed me with a bulls-eye every time

& my gift
it was ur lips when the sunset & the moon called like hip-hop MCs in the 80s

Yes
Yes
Ya'll
to the beat ya'll

we are...
on one rhythm
one sound & one accord
with one heart beating I can't ignore that way my music skips when ur sweet kiss is flavored with cranberries, white chocolate chips & macadamia nuts

touch me
as I clutch u
Come Kiss My Lips & Make My Blood Boil

I am a Socialist with a Capitalist Migraine

I am a Socialist with a Capitalist Migraine

I want to Save the World while wearing Kenneth Cole t-shirts, DKNY white linen cargo carpi pants & rock Salvatore Ferragamo flip flops...

I'm always working hard to help various non-profit organizations gain recognition and fund raise for research but I have never wanted to look homeless while I do it...

Although, I find it more important to push my mental muscle and build bigger my soul so I can hold the weight of the world on my neck and spine. I'll always find time to tilt my L-R-G trucker ball cap to the right side...

I mean I really love fashion, love looking good & I love staying fresh-n-clean but it doesn't mean that my soul has any less depth than the president of the American Red Cross or creator of TOMS "1 for 1" shoes...

I Recycle
I Reduce
I Reuse
and I refuse to dress like a hippie
or been known as that one cat that really needs a shower...


So tell me,
While u judge me...
What are your guilty pleasures?

Stay Strong & Stay Positive

"Life is Harsh and Ugly, so Don't Reject Me..."
-Nas

For the most part, June has been a disturbingly unattractive and ugly month for me and quite a few of my close friends. First, I have dealt with more financial hardship than normal. Now more than I've had to deal with the situations I'm going through, I've been making an extraordinary attempt to be a "Great Friend" to quite a few in my life.

I realize that as many problems as I think I could have that I must remember, what I am going through is nothing.

*I am not dying
*I am not incarcerated
*I am not homeless
*My children do not hate me
(even if I can't see them all the time/everyday)



Hmmm, I just realized that making that list was harder than making a list of positives. It was actually difficult for me to phrase the negative situations that were not happening to me. I kept wanting to say everything positively. I wanted to say...

*I am Alive
*I am Free
*I have a Place to Rest My Head Every Night
*I Love My Children & My Children Love Me


We must all remember to be thankful for what we have and not what we do not have. We must not confuse tough times and hardship for definite end of the world catastrophe.

I have watched many people in the most recent years across America and the entire world face incredibly discouraging and entire life changing, destructive odds.

Earthquakes, Floods, Tsunamis, Tornadoes and Hurricanes and through all the pushed forward.

We lose our homes and our cars breakdown. We lose jobs or our medical coverage is cut. We even lose family members to death and disease. We also must remember that there are a great number of people in Joplin, Missouri and in the country of Japan who this year have lost everything I just named in the same hour. People who have faced great devastation and had to muster the necessary strength to keep going.

I have been trying to figure out what is it that keeps people going in those outrageous circumstances. Is it mental or spiritual? Is it a biological gene bred and passed through many years of family bloodlines? Could it be social-psychological and/or cultural upbringing that since birth has been installed into every child with-in their society eventually creating great adults? I think it could be all of the above and that many of the those next to me need to figure out how to tap into these powers and begin to prepare ourselves and our children on what the true definition of "Strength" really is...

Stay Strong & Stay Positive People

Hopeless, Open, Heart-n-Soul Powered & Moving Forward

It is Monday morning and I have not left my house since Saturday evening when I got off of work. I truly know what cabin fever is now. I have been in conversation with an old friend lately who has been around since the beginning of this year. She has helped me out of many tight situations over the last few months and I truly appreciate it. I have been considering an actual relationship with her but because of past incidents and history I am not sure if that would be the correct choice. We have known each other since we were in high school over 20 years ago and dated a few years outside of high school when we were 20 and 21. I desire more with her and she lets me know daily that she would love to have more with me but once again I must state that I just do not know.

There has also been some communication with my ex-girlfriend. That has been difficult because though we only dated seriously for a short time (less than 2 months), I have had the darnedest time completely moving pass that relationship. I am not sure if I liked the thought of having a woman that I had complete attraction and desired for or if I was really wanting a relationship with her. It is wild because I would have thought that they were both the same but I am realizing now that I really know how to romanticize a situation.

I learn something new about myself everyday. My most recent discovery is that "I am a Hopeless Romantic" and I'm not sure if I like it. I simply see that it is easily a larger component of what makes me a poet and capable of true love but it also makes me vulnerable for heartbreak. Another dimension of "The Gift & Curse" I must endure through.
Good. Bad, and the Ugly drama that must proceed when every fantasy becomes reality.

I had quite a negative break-up with my ex-gf and turned very ugly and disrespectful when the relationship ended. I would text her outrageous messages over a 2 day period, letting her know what I felt about her and how much I could not stand her. Obviously, half of it was not the case, I really did like and appreciate her but I was hurt and I could not see past that. The statements I was making that were truthful, were delivered with such anger and resentment for the way I was treated that they could never be taken in their true context. I am constantly apologizing to her everyday for being so disrespectful and hope that I can get my Honor as a Good Man back.

I would Love to repair my ex-gf's pains and sorrows I caused and also the ones that were there before I arrived. I know it is not possible to turn back time and if you could and I was limited to the amount of times I could perform that fantastical trick. I know that this most recent event would not make that top 25 of my historical mishaps and blunders I wish I could go back and repair. This does not mean I will not try everything in my powers to move forward with bringing new positivity to an old negative. I know I want to Heal and I want her to Heal.

"You cannot control what happens to you, but you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you." -Brain Tracy

Okay, time to eat some chocolate cake, ice cream and a few chocolate chip cookies, my all-time favorite comfort foods. So Yeah, don't usually hear men speak of comfort food very often do you? Guess that is the Hopeless Romantic in me. Would anyone else would like some of my goodies?

Time & Inner Space

Original People travel time

& search inner space for a place to call home...

roaming concrete covered souls

we expose ourselves to galactic glory

& ride comets thru the holes in ur soul

& fill those around us with galactic glory...

Original People Travel Time

& Search Inner Space for a Place known as Home...

Implode...

Burgundy Crush Velvet Voluptuous...

I step down the black stairway to heaven,

grind til spines combine & electricity sparks,

erotic parts fuse...

We Explode!!!

Kiss Lips & Rocket Ships Zoom...

Inner Galactic Time Travel,

unroll red velvet carpet & step aboard,

encore kiss my spirit with the tip of super nova stars

We Explode!!!

Riding in the Zone

expose u to me & sit not touching

but feeling every millimeter of your mind & soul

I Love it when...

We...

Implode...

Beautiful Unusual

the beautiful is the unusual...

thick liquid brown skin tone...

rough & cold...

icee-hot bloodlines change minds...

while time smiles with a sinister blind eyeless face...

never looking back...

journey forward...

footsteps down forever changing cracks creating canyons...

tracks made from the escape of a glass cage...

now rage sparks before sparkling joy...

fear...

orgasms and pity...

memories, remenising tears shower that sweet, sour beauty... thinning your gorgeous brown skin tone grows colder from froozen surroundings, swimming in your beauty...

your charcoal mellowed tennessee beauty...

so beautiful...

so unusual...

stutter thoughts...

my dark chest heart-burned...

burlap coated throat chokes and coughs...

i pause...

lick lips...

sit still...

perched low while blood sugar rises with every kiss from your love

sedative soaked lips is speaking french to my soul...

ExQuisite... ConYac... BouRboN... WhiSKey

whisking me into an EuPhoRia....

Imagine

Imagine sinless seduction...

Primal sexual oppression & privledge...

Uninhibited desires fulfilled...

Taste...

Touch...

Smells...

and Sights darkened pitch black by blindfolds...

Oral stimulation spoken in foriegn tongue...

the victorious voice of lust singing high-pitched, hardcore opera hymns...

rhytmic sound of pounding flesh meshed with muscle & bone on bone & limbs stiff like steal...

Feel No Limits

Twisting, Turning, Touching, Weightless anti-gravity atmospheres...

Never come down...

150 minutes turning towards eternity...internally imploding outside-in...

visions vivid thru the dark like desert stars soaking sunburst thru the soul...

NOW HOLD!!!

& Imagine Love...

Feel affectionate lips kiss foreheads & the smooth romantic dance of spiritual desire...

All Honesty

All Truth

can we see the same visions?

both roads merged to 1

can they touch the same Image?

Love vivid in Lust liquified for bathing...

always unbashful...

totally unashamed...

Prohibited by none...

We meet when the both becomes 1...

Unified Champion Triumphant

I was 5 once b4 & all I remember is My Pic...

the young old soul in the picture spoke a thousand words

gleeful & dream filled

proud my butterfly collar was crisp and colorful

spread from throat to shoulder

& blessed with an even wider perfectly patted Afro which resembles a halo

splendid, natural smile dimpled plum plumped cheeks

elated with speech

my 5 year young mind

unable to see futures

but I remember my dreams

so simple and sweet

so innocent

No mortgage payments

No bills

No killing caffeine filled grande cups of coffee

Nor counting calories

No jail bars

No courtrooms

No intolerable college roommates on mushrooms

No Jack Daniels

or searching for lighters and zig-zags

and knowing I'm already late for my next class

No explaining to my parents why I'm droping out for the 3rd time

No 9 to 5's

No 7 to 9... 13 hour work days

No shame

No blame

No names of yester-years past lovers

or presently suffering from repayments of universal carma

just simple dreams

so sweet & so innocent

candy and cartoons

bus rides to zoos

playing in the dirt

and my only hurt was getting a splinter

or skinning my knee

so simply sweet

I remember my dreams &

now know what it means when they say...

"the youth is wasted on the young"

because if I knew then, what i know now

without doubt

I'd have an even bigger smile