Documentary of a 38 Year Play in Progress...

Well I figure since it is my birthday weekend I have to post something. It is also my new calendar addition "Indie Movie Sunday" where I will watch at least one new independent movie every Sunday (if not more than one) which of course that prompts my intellectual being to produce, and that writer's itch that comes over me once or twice a week and I just can't resist.

I have experienced a whirlwind of emotions over the last past few weeks leading up to my 38th birthday. I have found myself in several new relationships and honestly none feel real. It is like my world has been trapped between reality-n-fantasy and I am viewing everything through an outer body third perception. I can only describe it as I am the playwright, the director and the main actor in a romantic comedy. My trouble is that I see the irony that is quickly morphing my lighthearted, comedic-love story into a dramatic tragedy but can not change the scene or redirect my control over the supporting cast.

The scene that my life has been set against and my on stage "B-story" has been placed on the back burner but is rapidly poising itself for a Tony Award-Winning, center stage emotional supernova explosion. I have always thought of myself as being in a situation of economic inferiority as compared to most of my industry peers (who are all homeowners if not millionaires) but with the decline of the nation on a whole financially has me in a position where every dollar that is made feels like it could be the last.

Recently I my joy has been replace with superficial, temporary physical giggles over a thriving, vibrant mind and soul that made their home in happiness and content to "Let Go & Let God". I turned 38 years old yesterday and the only question I could ask myself is, "What can I afford?" I asked myself if I can afford to live in a nice townhouse in Rancho Cucamonga? Can I afford having any woman in my life right now? Can I afford not to write? Can I afford not to record?

This play is in no way over and I shall re-write like the Dickens and create the greatest transition into the most magnificent ending ever imagined. My 38 Year Play in Progress is just beginning to thicken and will take everyone involved on the outrageous and awesome ride the moment you, my audience are ready.

Come With Me Now...